4th night at diploma
9 February, 2010
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PD (personal development) may sound weird to anyone not involved in counselling training. The object is to help you become more aware of yourself. So, when sitting with a client I’m more conscious of my feelings and how they affect that relationship. I get to know what pushes my buttons and thus don’t react when they are pushed.
During PD sat there feeling nothing. Supposed to share what we feel. Wondered about saying I didn’t feeling anything. I didn’t speak. Though, is not feeling still a feeling? I think it is, at least in this context. As I stayed with this lack of feeling started to feel a little concerned that there was no real feeling. Surely I should have something going on? Previous weeks there has. Perhaps should have shared that. Did feel frustrated that every time was about to open my mouth someone else did slightly before me. Could have shared that frustration. Need to be a bit bolder and faster 😉 Though that runs a risk of offending. At one point congruence was discussed, leading away from feelings more into theory, until someone led us back to sharing feelings.
If these accounts of the evenings seem short and to not give a full description of all that occurred, its due to confidentiality. Also this blog is relating my feelings, thoughts, etc on my counselling journey. Not anyone elses.